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<p>“吃一堑长一智。”他们说。</p><p>They say, every setback is a step towards wisdom.</p><p>于是我试图变得更好更聪明，努力铺平道路。</p><p>So I tried to become better, smarter, working hard to smooth the road ahead.</p><p>但后来发现道路没有变平，倒是磨坏了我自己。</p><p>But over time, I realized the road hadn't been leveled, instead, it was I who had been worn down.</p><p><strong>后来我才发现只有所谓的"堑"，但是根本没有所谓的"智"。</strong>世界太无序了，感觉自己无论做什么都是错的。我陷入了经验虚无主义。</p><p><strong>Eventually, I came to see that while the setbacks were real, the wisdom was nowhere to be found. </strong>The world is chaotic, and it feels as though no matter what I do, it's always wrong. I fell into a deep sense of experiential nihilism.</p><p>可只有当你拥有自己的主体性，当你选择站在自己这边，而不是跟随服从于他人为你设定的标准，才会发现这世上很多事本没有对与错。</p><p>It is only when you claim your own subjectivity, when you choose to stand by yourself rather than following the standards set by others, you start to see that many things in this world have no inherent right or wrong.</p><p><strong>喜欢和讨厌，赞同或反对，正统和颠覆，上与下，美与丑，都只关乎“利己”。</str...